It has been extremely tense around here. I'm having a hard time relaxing when I have free time because people are always having breakdowns (it's not me this time, I promise). It's frustrating when this happens due to the fact that everyone (including the staff) is on edge. 

In these moments, I tend to avoid people at all costs, so I go on the porch and read or go take a shower.

I'm at the point where I can't take it anymore. I've been in and out of treatment for the last three years and I'm sick of it.