I'm in need of strength today. The homesickness is really sinking in. It's not even that I miss my family or that I miss my friends or my dog. I miss my house, my pool, my comfort. It's way more difficult than I ever expected here. I knew it was going to be hard, but saying it's really hard here is even an understatement.

I'm trying to be strong but I feel so weak.

I told my story in group yesterday and I didn't shed a tear while I spoke. That's not like me. I don't know what's happening to me.

I need strength because I cannot find it within myself and I'm scared.